Little Miss Erii

This is the new look. This is the new change.
I plan on going back to the living world looking completely different. That's the plan.

What if people don't notice. What if it's all for nothing?!

Ah, the things that take up the corners of my mind....

I try not to listen, but the fridge hums a pleasant tune that promises me sweet lies. I dig inside, and what do I find? Little triangles of fat, all wrapped up nice.
First it's just one. And, oh god, how that tastes amazing. Creamy, dancing on my tongue, slithering down my throat, making me fat before it even hits my stomach. My empty stomach, now bubling with disgusting trash.

Then it's another, another. I watch myself stuff the dairy products into my mouth, the mirror doesn't lie. I see a...what do I see? I see a girl stuffing her face with cheese. God how disgusting.

That's me.

The cow on the wrapper laughs. He laughs and laughs, or maybe it's a she. It doesn't matter, the cow is laughing. Laughing at me. The cow laughs and mocks and taunts me. To remind me. That's all I am. A cow.

I don't laugh.

I feel like crying. All the wrappers are empty. My belly isn't empty. My belly grows bigger by the second. The cow laughing inside me like a nasty parasite. Mean cow.

There's nothing I can do about it. I try and try. But the cow is in me, and doesn't want to come out. The cow takes over, eats my skin. I am the cow.


I stepped on the scale this morning and I'd lost five pounds. And now the cow welcomes it back

Erii

Don't run and hide
cause I couldn't stand the pain


 She didn't try to hide it. Her shiny bones poked out through her plastic skin, reflecting in the audience's eyes the glass mirror.  Her tutu doesn't fit anymore, it slides right down her thighs. She's had to pin it right into her flesh to keep it from flying off. Another three weeks without eating and maybe the whole costume will fall off. Another year, and she will be perfect  will never dance again. Her bones are the right size and shape now that they've been sawed down to fit perfection too feeble to hold up her small weight, no pirouettes for you young lady. No dancing ever again. You're body can't handle it. Say goodbye to that dream of yours. But I'm perfect, that's more important than my future. What future?

What was her name?

"It would be so nice if something made sense for a change." - Alice



Erii: My feet are bleeding from my pointe shoes. Good thing I dyed them red.

I want to put you inside a music box. Where nothing bad will ever happen to you.
Where you can live happily, munching on sweets and listening to lovely melodies.
I want to lock you up in a music box. Where no harm can touch you.
But I'm afraid you would not be very happy. For you were put on this earth to do wonderful things.
And if I keep you in my music box. No one else will get to enjoy the wonder that is you.
So I'll just make you cookies everyday. I'll make cupcakes and sweets only for you.
We will listen to my music box while eating icecream and we'll watch the sunset.
Just you and me, and my panda.
We'll sit together without worrying. Because you'll always be by my side.
You aren't gone. Not to me. You'll always be here inside the music box.
 <3 Erii

Has anyone else noticed how strange this whole community thing is getting?
It's getting  a little out of hand in my opinion. What's with people being so nasty? We're all here just to read and write. I don't see why there has to be any hate going on.
I know whoever creates these communities are just trying to unite people in their love for whatever, but it just seems a bit cliquish now.

Title: The Treehouse 2/2
Genre: Romance, childhood, friendship
Author: Kawaiimusicbox
Length: Very short series
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: If I owned them, would I really be making fanfics about them? Would you?
Summary: Childhood love can grow into something more. But can it withstand the cruelties of time? Jaejoong and Yunho are best friends who find love in an unlikely place. A story of best friends and what it means.

 

Title: The Treehouse 1/2
Genre: Romance, childhood, friendship
Author: Kawaiimusicbox
Length: Very short series
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Childhood love can grow into something more. But can it withstand the cruelties of time? Jaejoong and Yunho are best friends who find love in an unlikely place. A story of best friends and what it means.